You may have noticed that I was M.I.A – Missing in Action in May – absent from my blog and barely present on social media. I had an identity crisis which left me with tons to think about. So, I took the opportunity to do some mental, spiritual & soul introspection. This month was spent examining my thoughts and feelings to improve my inner awareness and to reevaluate my goals. Here are my notes from my month of introspection with the hope that you can learn something from it too…
To foster inner awareness, introspection and reasoning is more efficient than meditation and prayer. ~Dalai Lama
Putting my picture out there and sharing my thoughts isn’t as easy as I thought it would be. I started to worry about what people would think of me as my blog traffic grew.
Also, I have so many other interests and the blog was consuming me with its rules. It left me with little time to enjoy my other loves.
Both problems made me think of quitting the blog or at least holding some of my thoughts back.
I did a ton of introspection and this is what I came up with:
1. I wanted an outlet to express myself through writing. This is something that I truly love. So, I combined this soul need with one of my passions – the personal growth genre and here we are. My focus is women (because I do believe that we get the raw deal in life). And I genuinely care for any person that wants to make a difference in their life. I have transformed my own life, I wished to offer support and a shorter learning curve than what I had to go through.
It is okay to have many interests. My soul craves multi-tasking and I need to do many things to stay happy. So, whilst I have chosen my niche for my blog, you will find different things being mentioned every now and then that just doesn’t fit the rules. I’m sorry blogging world – that’s how it is here!
2. I love to write. I love to read. I love to draw and paint. I love to sew. I love to cook and bake bread. These are my loves. I am exceptionally happy when I am creating in this sphere.
3. My personal facebook page contains 100s of family, friends and acquaintances. I can safely say – 99% of them don’t know me anymore. Along with this, I now have a new blog family.
I am not who I was at 10. Nor am I the same person at 20. I am very different to what I was like at 30 and now upon reaching 40, I am different too. I have made mistakes and had some epic failures. This does not define me. These failures where events and circumstances that I transcended.
I was good a lot of the time and I was bad some of the time. That’s okay!!!
I hope to be different when I am 50 and then even more so as I get on in life. As long as I am different – good. As long as I am not stuck. As long as I am in a different space doing something different that makes me feel good and keeps my soul happy and inspired. As long as I am growing.
This is me – I acknowledge my fear of what others think but I will not let it hold me back from fulfilling my dream!
4. And just to throw in some confusion, inherently I remain the same – but much wiser than I ever was. I have learned from every failure. I have also enjoyed some awesome successes.
With each failure and success, I have become more accomplished, stronger and fearless. Yet not fearless enough. I have many fear blocks that I still need to clear.
5. I have traveled the world and fulfilled many of my dreams. But my greatest joy comes from raising my two kids. For me, there is absolutely nothing that comes close to being a mother. The mammoth responsibility of bringing up happy and well-adjusted humans is one of my life purposes.
What you can learn from my introspection…
This is not the typical how to do whatever in so many steps. But I sincerely hope that you managed to get something out of it. In summary:-
1. When something doesn’t feel right or authentic, take a step back. Take the time to look inside yourself and ask those pesky questions that you have been avoiding. Is this me? Is this what I really want?
2. Don’t be afraid to stop and check yourself on your dreams and goals too. Is this where you truly want to be? Does this make you happy at a soul level? You may find that as you progress, you change and you may have to take a detour, a fork on the road or start a new journey altogether. That’s growth and progress – Rejoice!!!
3. Meditate, Pray and keep your body moving and healthy. This is actually #1 on the list.
4. It’s okay to like what you like and do it your way. Create your own blueprint because you are unique. You don’t have to follow the typical business models or expert advice. Be discerning and be yourself.
5. There is no number 5. There doesn’t always have to be a round-off to the nearest 5 or 10.
6. Above all else, know yourself – find yourself- learn more because even when you learn that, there is more to know! It is only when you truly know and understand yourself, you live a happy existence. Don’t let fear hold you back!
What I accomplished in my M.I.A month
Apart from my month of introspection, I filled some buckets on my Vision Board.
Sewing mends my soul! I joined Days for Girls -Perth group and have been sewing washable feminine hygienic kits for underprivileged girls around the world. These kits give back up to 6 months of living in just 3 years of use. Thats 180 days of education, health, safety and dignity. I completed 25 kits at home and lots more at a Sew Day spent with a bunch of great women. My give-back felt awesome!
Writing soothes my soul! I spent every Thursday evening this last month, in a class with Dr. Alan Hancock writing creative short stories. This was absolute fun and I am so happy that another bucket on my Vision Board is starting to fill up.
My outdoor exercise routine was a disaster due to the rainy, cold days we are currently experiencing. I did, however, do some wonderful new yoga routines at home after my morning meditation.
On the down side, I struggled with water intake again! Am I ever going to make this into a habit?
This month, I have been busy learning more about me. It never ends. Just when you think you know a lot about yourself, you realize how much more complex and intricate your thoughts and challenges are. It was not my intention to write so much about me-me-me. I wanted to explain why I was MIA and I also wanted to share some of my personal learnings and growth this past May. This is my personal growth in progress!
All my love,